I said goodbye to the girl today.
I remember when the realization struck me that I was carrying, not just another baby, but a completely unique individual in my womb...I was awestruck.
As an infant...so serious; she was an observer, a thinker.
As a toddler...her huge brown eyes would well up with a mere look; even then her heart was soft, and a look was often all she needed to mend her ways.
As a preschooler and elementary student...she strove for peace with all her dear sweet heart, seeking to forge relationship and connection; bewildered if her efforts failed.
As an adolescent and teenager...always marching to her own drummer, she sought out the unpopular, refused to be bound by cliques; she reached across lines to offer friendship to everyone.
She is confident enough to sit by herself in a coffee shop...to wear all kinds of hats...to colour her hair outrageously (blue, red, purple)...to enter a group setting alone. She carries such empathy, feels things deeply, and loves others well. She gives of herself thoughtfully, freely, generously...ah, she's beautiful.
I said goodbye to the girl today...my sweet, courageous, fabulous girl. It's with our beloved Jesus that she goes, safest in his hand; and that is how I can let her go.
Oh my heart...be brave.